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Saturday, December 31st, 2005
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5:52 am - Yea it is 6a.m....
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I feel invisible. Is that stupid? Probably.
I wish that I could just... become a part of a fairytale land. I just wish I was a character on Gilmore Girls. Gilmore Girls makes me really really really happy.
Life is so hard. Even when it isnt hard. It isnt hard right now. Everything is good.... but its just so... complacent. I dont know. Im a nut.
I just really feel invisible like no one could even describe me because they see right through me.
I dont get why I feel this way. Granted, it might be the fact that it is 5:54 in the morning and I have yet to consider sleep. I really just want to cry. But I have no clue why. Again, it might be the whole lack of sleep factor.
And I feel like I have no one to talk to, which is definately a misconception because two of my best friends are upstairs right now. Granted, they are both sleeping and probably wouldnt love it if I woke them up. Besides, what would I say?
I know that Kyle is always just a phone call away... but hey, he wouldnt be too happy himself if I called him at this hour. Again, what would I be calling to say?
I really think life would be a lot happier if he were here right now to put his arms around me and just tell me "Baby, I love you... really, I do love you."
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| Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
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10:20 pm
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Hey ya'll.
Sooooo Im really bored. Guess I am just a big loser since it is a Saturday night and I am sitting here on my livejournal. You can blame my boyfriend for that. No, Im just kidding. Its no biggie.
Anyway, today was my last day at Limited Too. It is kinda sad... I liked it there. The hours just totally sucked, so... it had to go!
Soccer starts this week, and I am pretty excited about that. I also start my babysitting job for Taylor! Yippy skippy! I love Taylor, she is so itty bitty~ makes me happy.
Kyle makes me happy too. I miss him... but he and I have tomorrow together and monday too. Yay for labor day! Well, I touched on this before, but I am so excited about homecoming week!
Sunday is the carnival. Monday is the pep rally. Tuesday is the powder puff football game. Yippy skippy! Wednesday is PAINT THE DAM! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! Thursday is the parade and the bon fire, and then Friday of course the game, and Saturday the dance! Yay! I am so very excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got my dress, and Becca is borrowing one of my dresses, and we are going to get our hair done together, so that should be good because then we can have eachother to talk to... hair appointments are so long. Then I will go home and put my pretty dress on! I love my dress! It is soooooooooo... pink! and orange. But not ugly pink and orange. It is perfect! I love it. And then Ky and I are going to Lino's for dinner and then the dance.... ahhh, nothing better than dancing with the man you love! Gosh I love him so much!
It is so funny thinking about last homecoming, because... wel, it was awesome... but we had JUST started dating and we hadnt even kissed yet at that point and... hehe, we were just so cute! And he kissed my forehead, and I swear that kiss was the best of my whole life. Its just one of those things that I will never ever forget.
So today my mom and I were going to have a mother daughter day and go shopping, like we always do for our mother daughter days... but today, we decided to do something a little more selfless. We went through all of our clothes and got 4 garbage bags of clothing to donate to the Hurricane Katrina victims. Well, then I was thinking that even though I am sure that they will need clothes... they really need money! So, I called Karis (my partner in all community services) and we discussed having a massive garage sale in the school parking lot with things that everyone brings in.. all the proceeds go to the relief fund, and left over clothing will be taken to salvation army because they are collecting clothes and food to send to them. Makes me so happy.
I feel so bad for those people... it is so... just unbelievably heartbreaking. It reminds me of Sept 11, and 11th grade english because you do that huge section on naturalism... yea, Im such a dork I know.
So, school this year is pretty good. I mean, it is a fricken prison, but I like my classes and stuff. I am skeptical about Home Design... but I love everything else. English rocks. I thought that Brit Lit would suck, but we have read two things and I loved both!
w00t. I think I might get to go to Red Carpet Days. I just got an email about it... it is at Olivet. You go for a weekend and just see what Olivet is like ( go to a football game, their worship service, their clubs and ministries, go to a concert, etc...) And I dont really care cuz Im not going to Olivet, lol, but Liz is there and I will get to stay in her dorm! Heck yea! So that would be really fun. It is Sept 23rd-25th, so... yea. I keep thinking that there might be something on that day... but I dont know!
Gosh, it really feels like there is something going on then... if anyone knows, let me know, please! And I would have to take a day off of work... so that would be bad maybe.
Alright Im going to sleep!
Hope everyone has a dandy night!
Night night,
Nicole
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| Friday, September 2nd, 2005
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11:42 am
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Hello my trusty Journal. I am in Home Design right now, and this class sucks! Oh well, it should be easy enough I suppose. So, I officially hate school, or should I say prison! I think that hall monitors thrive for sweeping people and antagonizing us about what color our Ids are… long story! But yea, a stupid hall monitor caused my most mortifying moment EVER yesterday. I got my period, so I was trying to go to the nurse for a tampon, but he swept me for trying to use a pass illegitimately, so he took me back to class and made this huge formal announcement about the havoc I have caused in his life by trying to go to the nurse with a pass to the bathroom! Everyone was staring at me, and of course they totally knew! And the worst part is that I was wearing paper thin khakis and there was a spot! OMGSH! And then it took me about a half of an hour to leave the building because I kept getting in trouble for leaving for co-op. MORONS! And today we had to show our Ids in order to get in school, and it was horrible. HORRIBLE This school is such a prison now.
Anyway, Karis and I are planning Paint the Dam. AWESOME!
Being a senior would rock if this school didn’t start seriously sucking.
I cant wait for homecoming!
Newspaper is awesome this year. I love it. It would be better if Kyle was there though =(
The new people are great though. I love the new girls.
September 12th is my and Kyles one year anniversary! THE BEST YEAR OF MY ENTIRE LIFE… I don’t know what I would ever do without him.
Catch yall later for a more in depth report on…meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
PS-- I no longer am employed by Limited Too.
current mood:  bored
current music: There is no music in prison, duh
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| Sunday, August 21st, 2005
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1:26 am
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Hey yall.
Its basically Sunday. Tonight Kyle and I are going to see the Fabulous Janes! Heck yea! I love them!!!
Then there is Monday, Kyles last day of summer... =(
Tuesday Kyle starts Rock Valley. That is going to be my laundry day.
Wednesday hell begins for me. On the bright side though, Ky is driving me to school and coming in for 4th hour. So that is totally awesome!
September 12th is the big ONE YEAR! Man, the last year of my life has been so wonderful!! Like no other.... better than I ever could have thought to hope for!
So I am really sad that my Lizaroo is going away to Olivet. I am going to miss her!!!!
I am really sad that Kyle wont be in school with me. That is going to make the day seem so long!
Im happy that Becca is back =)
I am excited for newspaper and key club.
Oh, yea, Im moving. But I will still go to Belvidere since I only have one semester left to go... but, it is going to suck because it is like 25ish minutes away! So I am going to have to leave so early in the morning!!!!I mean, I was late everyday living 10 minutes away from school. This is going to be.... hard. -sigh- But hey! Ill have a pool!!!!
Alright, Im going to sleep. I am going to wake up early to go see the new baby! ( PS-- Her name is Taylor Marie, she was born on thursday august 18th at 3:15 pm. she weighed 8 pounds and 4 oz, o yes she was a big baby! She is bald, and Sue thinks that her head looks like a football... but boy is she cute!)
Alright, good night folks!
Nicole
current mood:  awake
current music: I keep humming this limited too song that i love
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| Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
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4:19 pm - Boreddddddddddddddddom
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Yea, I need to get a life. Well, Im going to the fair tonight with Liz, Kyle, and Jon. Should be fun.
Later.
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| Monday, August 8th, 2005
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10:18 pm
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Hey everyone. Well, I havent updated, like, at all for the whole summer! I have just been a busy little bee, I suppose.
Seriously, this has been one of the best summers ever, and definately one that has just flown by... I can NOT believe that school will be starting in just a couple weeks. I dont want it to!!!!!!!
Although... on the bright side, I am a senior... I am only there for one semester... and this one semester should be the easiest semester of my life! I took all REALLY EASY classes... like the type of classes that losers who hate learning take, which makes me a little weary of what kind of morons will be in my classrooms with me. However, if, I, someone who is generally an overachiever, felt the need to slack off after 11 years of hard work in "accelerated" classes, I am sure that someone else has to! Sheez, I hate labels of accelerated, basic, average, AP, honors, all that crap. I mean, I have been in honors all my life, but I hate it when people say "Well today in honors English..." UGH! Why dont they just say " today in english..." That is what I always did... I mean, if you are an intelligent person, you don't need to flaunt it to people. They will know just by conversing with you. Know what I mean?
I dont know... in a way, I feel a little bit... guilty for not taking hard classes this year. I mean, come on though! I have done my time. I have taken my hard classes... I deserve a break, right? I mean, the whole point in taking AP classes is to take the AP test... and if I am leaving in one semester, there is no way that I am taking an AP class. Ugh, I hate that I am trying to justify this!!!!!
Well anyway, this is my schedule:
1--Co-op with Claeyssens (YES! YES! YES!)
2--enlgish with mr. pollard, new teacher (rolls eyes)
3-- government with agulair (I wanted bahling!!!!!!! ROAR)
4--newspaper, my pride and joy joy joy!
5--home design ( o yes, apparently I am a true slacker at heart!)
6--lunch in the...get this! In the fricken new cafe. I thought that I had made it my whole high school career without having to go to that stupid smelly cafeteria! Ill never go... I go to Doyles anyway.
7--PE with Mackey (w00t)
8-- Co-op supervision, so I leave! Its like having 7 periods, but getting credit for 8. It is fricken awesome!
Everything with Kyle is utterly amazing... it sucks that this summer has to end because everything has been so wonderful. But.. it is good to know that this awesome summer is going to be filled with many many many more wonderful seasons together... It is just going to keep getting better! This past weekend we went to Starved Rock on Saturday and fished all day long. It was so cool... and just so peaceful being out in nature!
We went to the Festa Italiana. Cool time. Cool time. Although, the older I get... the more lame that seems. Oh well. The fair starts tomorrow. It is so sad... I have totally turned into a true Boone-County-er. The people around here think that the fair is the coolest thing since bread and butter. I used to think that they were just dumb... I was a city girl, mind you. But hey! I have lived here for a decade... Im not a city girl anymore. Im a country girl... yes, its true, sadly.
So, I am just going to briefly touch on this Dustin thing. Im sad. Okay? I admit it. He was in my small group. I have heard him pray. I have heard him talk about God... passionately talk about God. I remember when he got saved. I knew two totally different Dustins, the school version and the out-of-school version. Not to mention, the total shock of the fact that something so tragic could happen to someone so young... someone with his entire life ahead of him. Someone my age. I mean... man, I think about all the things that I want to do... I want to go to college, become a special education teacher, learn sign language, travel, get married, love PASSIONATELY, have babies, I want to go back to Greece and watch another sunset... it looked so different there than it does here. I cant explain it, I want to go back to Naples and read my Bible and listen to the ocean, man, there is so much I want to do... so much to live for...
It is so weird. I just cant understand why God would take someone so young. I just cant understand it.
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With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene.
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You are very responsible and capable.
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current music: REM
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| Friday, July 1st, 2005
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8:26 am
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Hello everyone.
I hope all of you are having a wonderful summer thus far. I know that mine is quite fantastic.
Today is our newspaper party, and I am a little bit overwhelmed at all that is left to do. I feel a little unorganized because Karis and I havent really got together, sat down, and figured things out... although, we entirely over- figured everything to begin with, so I think that we will be okay. Haha, that is Karis and I for ya. We plan, plan, plan until we are blue in the faces. It is just frustrating to not see the other person's progress on everything... like, I know that Karis is entirely reliable, but it would just be nice to hear "Yep, its done." and I am sure that she would like to know that all is well with the senior momentos and food sitch.
But anyway... life nowadays is really good. I've been working a lot at the park district and limited too. Oh, if there is anyone interested in working in an awesome, high- energy filled work place, limited too is now hiring!
I dont drink pop anymore... that is weird, but... its good. It was a healthy move, ya know? I havent drank it since june 5th, so it has almost been a whole month! I miss it a lot less than I thought I was going to. I seriously could have put back like, 2 liters a day! I loved diet coke... but water, juice, and iced tea has taken its place in my heart.
Speaking of a place in my heart! I LOVE MY KYLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everything is still great with him... everything is just unbelievable. I could not have asked for more love and happiness! It is really cool because we both coach Tball, so work is something that we do together and I really like that. Heh, I could throw a wig on him and he could apply at L2 as Kyla and then we would work together at both places! Hehe!
Alrighty, well I have things to do for the party today...
Catcha later alligator!
Nicole
current mood:  busy
current music: Humming limited too songs.... as always. Sad really!
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| Monday, June 6th, 2005
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1:21 pm
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Half of a final exam until I'm a senior =) How fun! Well, I dont know the whole being a senior thing is gonna be, but boy am I glad that it's summer!
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| Saturday, June 4th, 2005
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12:54 am
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Does anyone find it odd that my last name ends with REESE and my favorite candy is reeses! reeces? Omgsh, ya know how you cna look at a word and nomatter what...it just looks wrong to you? That is totally a word that just looks messed up!
So sorry I have not been updating lately. Ive been a busy bee.
Ugh, finals today... they really werent so bad! But still.. I hate finals! Monday is the last day, yippy skippy.
Bachalaureate was today. That was nice. It was sad... the seniors have to be so scared... they are basically leaving life as they know it.
Graduation tomorrow. That should be, well to be honest, its going to be boring lol. I will enjoy the 15 seconds that it takes Kyle to walk across the stage! I love my Kyle.
So yea, life is good. I dont know what to write about... I know that there should be something to write about seeing as how I have not updated in a really long time, primarily because I have been so darn busy.. but I do not know what to say!
I start coaching tball on monday. That is sweet. I think I am going to like it!
I am so excited for this summer. It is going to be the best summer yet!!!!
I miss Kyle. He just left a little while ago...and I miss him already! Sheez! I dont know what I would do without that boy =)
So going back aways, Ashleys party was really fun. I want a volleyball net at my bday party =) Although.. I dont have much of a yard, so I dont know where I am going to put a dunk tank and a volleyball net. My backyard is basically just a ditch... cant do much with a ditch!
The journalism awards night is going to be really fun. Karis and I have some GREAT things planned!!!! I think I am going to ask Phil to cater... if Karis has no objections. Oh, hehe, we are such brown nosers. We are making frames for Doyle and Borden lol!!! Makes me laugh.
OH SHIT. I have to write... like, 3 essays this weekend for Social Problems. This sucks. I should go to sleep. I have to wake up in 6 hours. I like sleep.. I wish I got more of it!
Much love everyone =)
Peace =)
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| Thursday, May 26th, 2005
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1:16 pm
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My life is rated PG-13.
What is your life rated?\
So anyway, life has been pretty dandy. School year is winding down... so that is really exciting! Tomorrow is the seniors' last day =( That makes me very sad! School is going to be... odd.
We get to start our social problems final on Tuesday, so that is pretty darn sweet.
I want to go buy a dress for Kyle's graduation. Perhaps I will do that today.
I bought his graduation gift yesterday. That excites me. Yea, I went shopping and got several cards, his present and Ashley's present. I am excited for what is to come... Ashleys party, graduation, Kyles party, all those other parties, the pool party on the 12th.
I know that this is... kinda far off... but GUESS WHAT! I am so excited for my bday party because we are getting a dunk tank and I want to put Kyle in there, hehehehe! That will be so darn fun! It is going to be on July 17th. So yea, I will make a post a couple days before then so everyone knows about it! I always used to wish that I had a bday during the school year because I could never just hand out invitations and stuff and I never got to bring treats right on my birthday. My mom always sent them on my half birthday, January 15th, but that just isnt the same!
I got plowed over in PE today and it fricken hurt! Juan was ... well, I dont know what the hell he was doing, maybe he wasnt looking where he was going... but yea, somehow he ended up plowing right into me and I felt like a damn football player... =( Ouch.
Hmmmmmm, I dont know what to talk about... I feel like I should have a bunch to talk about considering the fact that I havent updated in AGES!
I am really excited for my summer job =) It is going to be super sweet to be working with my Kyle! Not to mention that the job itself is fricken sweet! Those little 3 and 4 year olds are going to be so adorable! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Oh my goodness, today at the center... it was a doosey! Angel was being out of hand and ... I dont know. He really responds well to me, and that makes me feel... needed. I love it. I really think that I could see myself doing that in years to come. Breaks my heart that I cant go to preschool graduation! Stupid finals!
Ugh, so I think that my grade for my alg. final actually really matters and can affect my grade... that really sucks.
Lets see here...
Friday I have: English, 1/2 PTI, US History
Monday I have : Social problems (well, kind of... but he is letting us start on Tuesday because we just have a bunch of essay questions and we have to give him a page per question.) Then, 1/2 PTI, Newspaper (ha!)
Illl edit later! Bell rang!
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| Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
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1:23 pm
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Much to say and only five minutes to do so.
Havent updated in a long long long long time... so I better start with prom... WHAT A WONDERFUL NIGHT! I love my boyfriend so much. It was...hehe, allow me to be clique, but it was like a fairy tale. Chicago was great. Kyle is great. I love that man! I ...can not even explain it.
School=stupid but almost over.
Christen is coming to visit on June 5th.
I cant wait for Friday. I have a romantic date with Kyle =)
I need to buy a dress to wear to Kyle's graduation. I am excited. Dresses=fun.
Becca comes home kinda soonish... the whole party thing is... well, I dont know how this is gonna go. -Rolls eyes- I mean I want to go, but there is that one underlying reason as to why I dont want to go...but of course I will because its Becca. I have to go. I just dont know...
Gotta go, bells gonna ring!
Ill update later!
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| Friday, May 6th, 2005
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9:05 am
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Today will always be remembered as the day that my boyfriend jumped up 5 feet and darted out the door, almost injuring himself on the way our!... while SHREAKING like a crazy wombat...
That was the funniest 30 seconds of my entire morning.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! MR BAHLING IS COMING! RETREAT! RETREAT! RETREAT!
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| Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
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11:31 am - Brag! Brag! Brag!
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I love the Mercy Me song, Spoken For. Man o man, it is so awesome. Gives me goosebumps. We got the cd free when we sponsored a child on Sunday at that concert. It was sweet. Oh yea, we are sponsoring this little girl names Merelin Tatianna and she is 5 from Colombia. *Makes me happy*
So anyway, its Wednesday, and it is going by quickly! That makes me happy. I will be pleased when school is over. I just want to hang out with my baby tonight... I love being with him. Gosh... How did I get so lucky? (I know Josh, you dont believe in luck...) I am just so grateful for the amazing relationship I am in... and for how amazing I feel... how he makes me feel... Last night, we only got to see eachother for about 20 minutes because he worked until 9 and I had to be home at 10 but those 20 minutes were the highlight of my day. I love when he holds me... it is the safest place in the world for me.
----- Take this world from me, I dont need it anymore. I am finally free, my heart is spoken for. Oh, and I praise you, ohh, and I worship you. Covered by your love devine, child of the risen Lord, to hear you say this ones mine... my heart is spoken for.----------
Man, I really have it all. I have such a great life... I am so so grateful. I feel so foolish for being so depressed. I just feel silly for getting so worked up about everything. I guess it was pretty selfish of me. I mean, think about it... I am in the BEST relationship... we are so great for eachother. I am doing great with God. I am reading a really good book. My family is great. School is great. I love my job. I have great friends. Everything is WONDERFUL... As soon as Becca gets back, life will be PERFECT to the fullest degree.
EEEEEEEEE I love Kyle! I love the picture of us on my journal. Heh, its just so goofy. Kyle, I love you. I want to walk over there and give you lots and lots of kisses... as a matter of fact, I think that I will!
Im out everyone, the man of my dreams needs to be kissed!
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| Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
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11:32 am
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I love my life =)
Everything is all better now and I just feel so much better about everything. Kyle and I hung out yesterday and it was just what I needed. He is so amazing!
Well, yea.... so, there isnt much to talk about right now. Prom is this weekend. Yay! I hope that this week goes by really quickly! So, today is half over. Tomorrow has the potential to be a long day. Thursday is going to be pretty good because I am going with my preschool class to some petting zoo kinda thing on a field trip! That will be cool. Then we just have to get through Friday at school... and then... yay!
Kyle and I are hanging out that day after school, and that is going to be awesome... but not nearly as awesome as SATURDAY! PROM! OHHHHH MYYYY GOSHHHH! I AM SO EXCITED!
Awww, poor little girls. We ate their suckers. Awww, cry cry cry.
Sorry, randomness.
I love my Kyle
Goodnight.
LOL, I said goodnight. It is not goodnight. It is see you later.
I have so much to do. I have been editing and editing, and there is still more editing to do. Bah hum bug. I hate editing! Bahhh!
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| Monday, May 2nd, 2005
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11:07 am
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I am so very frustrated.
I cant explain how I feel, but I know that it is not what I would want to feel if I had my choice. I kind of feel like I have no one to talk to, and if I did, I wouldnt know what to say. Although, I do have people to talk to, so I guess its just that I dont know what to say.
My mom and I had a really good talk yesterday. That was good. Very useful.
I just feel like curling up in a ball and going to sleep... perhaps because I am tired. Perhaps becaue I am unhappy. Perhaps because I am scared.
I had a horrible dream last night.
Anyway though. My weekend was decent. I didnt see much of Kyle, and that sucked but I guess I cant really complain seeing as how I did fun stuff and he had to work all weekend. I got to go to the movies, out to dinner, out for ice cream, to the dinner/dance, and to the concert...
The concert was pretty tight. There were four bands, and they were all pretty good. The Afters are freaking awesome, I had never heard of them but they are really really good. We got the cd and listened to it on the way home.When I got home I wanted nothing more than to talk to Kyle... but it was late, so I just fell asleep. I wish that I could have called him...
Man, I can not wait for Friday. This week is going to be long.
I really think that all of these feelings are due to exhaustion.
Later
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| Friday, April 29th, 2005
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3:49 pm
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OMGSH!
My mom just called me to tell me what tickets she bought for the concert!
We are floor level, right in the front, third row, center! YEA BABY! I can not believe that nut job spent $75 on a ticket! Fine by me though, this is so cool!
This is going to be awesome!!!
LOL, a little while ago, Kyles sister called me and she was frreaking out because she and her mom are at the mall, and Kyle was supposed to work at 330, but he wasnt there, and they tried calling him and calling him and he didnt answer... and so theycalled me, flipping out, thinking that he died... and so they asked me to go to their house and see if he was there... so Im in a panic, and Im half way doen my street when I decided that I am going to frantically call him ... he answered. No worried. He is alive and well, just sleepy, and very late for work.
Im glad that he is okay though.
He wil think that it is funny later. Heh.
current mood: excited
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9:32 am - TGIF... or maybe not... ?
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So, its Friday. Yep, usually this is a reason to rejoice, but I cant honestly say that it is. This weekend has the potential to be very... iffy.
So, today I dont have any real plans. Kyle is working 330-10. My uncle gay is in from Florida, so perhaps he and I can go tanning together or something...have some quality girl time lol. Or maybe Liz and I can hang out. I dont know. Today could be good... or it could be bad... no, no, it will be good. Lets be optimistic (contrasting yesterday, wink)
Then tomorrow is going to be hell. I have my stupid traffic class 1-5... dumb speeding ticket is still haunting me. Then I am a CI (call in) for L2 for 5-10... which means that I am supposed to call at 4 and if they need me I go in at 5... does anyone else see an error there?? Yea, so I told Jenny that I will call at 5 and if they need me, I can be there by 520. I hope that I do have to work. I really do. I am just dreading that stupid traffic class. Work would be good though. I could use the money, and plus Kyle works 4-10, and so then we would get off at the same time. Well, I could potentially get off of work at 9:30, but that would be okay too. I could just run over to Dairy Queen and grab us something to eat. Im sure that he will be hungry after his day. And Im always hungry! Hehe.
Then, Sunday... well my baby works all day long. But my mommy and I are going to a Mercy Me and Jeremy Camp concert!!!! That will be fun. I was supposed to go with Liz, but she cant go. So, it is cool that I am going with my mom though. It might be weird, but I dunno.
So yea, Kyle works all weekend which sucks for me, but it sucks for him even more. I mean, at least I have the option of doing something... he has to stand there and clean sunglasses... I just really miss him ALREADY.
Well, looking ahead to better times, times when Kyle and I get to be together! Next weekend is going to kick butt, and since we are going to have this horrible weekend of lonliness, that will enhance the goodness even more! So, Friday (the 6th) we can hang out and get pizza from lino's...because I have a gift certificate for a free large pizza with 2 toppings. Black olives and pepperoni, Kyle? Sounds good to me!
And then on Saturday... yippy skippy. PROM! Getting ready. Pictures. Dinner at giovanni's. The dance. Yay.
I love prom... I mean, I love how it seems like such a magical time with your significant other... I mean, Kyle and I will sometimes just randomly dance in his room or in a parking lot, lol... but it is never as enchanting as it was at homecoming, but it will be even better at prom! And ... not only am I looking forward to seeing him all fly in his tux and dancing the night away with him, but I am excited to get ready. I love getting my hair done. It is nice to be pampered... hehe.
Sunday we are taking the train to Chicago. That is going to be awesome.
The next day will be wonderful too. You know what I say about mondays when I dont attend school right? Well, what I say is that they are fricken awesome! So during the school day, Ky and I can chilax, ya know, around. Oh, and my mother in all of her insanity has decided that I am going to get my senior pictures done that day at 3...even though I will not even be done with my JUNIOR year by that time. She thinks that it is a better idea though because if you get it done in May, you get a whole 75% off and then she can get the whole big elite sitting with the 85 poses, 6 outifts, and 2 locations for only $100 instead of $400... which makes total sense, but ... well, its fine. I dont mind, its just that I wont look like that my senior year... ! Its going to be fun though, and Kyle is coming with so we are going to get some shots taken together. That excites me. I need to think about my 6 outifts! Then after we are all done there, we are going to Williams baseball game.
So yea, this weekend isnt going to be AMAZING...but there is a light at the end of the tunnel! If I have learned anything, it is to focus on those lights. Right now, I could be focusing on how directly after the light are 7 days of him working and working and working and working... but I wont complain about that until after prom! So yes, right now I am just LONGING for May 6th to roll around.
Later gator, Nicole
current mood:  mellow
current music: Nickelback
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| Thursday, April 28th, 2005
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11:26 am
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I hate to sound like a bitch, but oh well.
I hate everyone.
Well, not everyone.
But there are certain people, quite a few at the moment, who I really wish I could tell them what I think of them... but I wont. MOTHER F*ER.
I HATE YOU. Yea, if you are reading this, there is a REALLY GOOD CHANCE that I think that you make this world a sucky place.
I wish that I could put into words just how annoyed I am right now. But I cant... it is just one of those feelings that tell me to throw something across the room, cry and leave.
I really want to skip... but, what would I do? I mean, everyone else will be in school... although quite honestly, I would really rather be alone... or with just Kyle. That would be good too. I dont hate him. But I do hate you.
Die bitchs
current mood:  bitchy
current music: whatever the fuck that stupid music karis likes is, thats it
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| Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
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11:11 pm
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I am doing this because I am sitting at home and I am not tired, even though I a ma little tired, but I am kinda sadso I dont feel like going to bed, but I somehow do feellike staying up and torturing myself this with quiz that was stolen from matt who stole it from jason who stole it from jen .... so much attribution.
LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: Me, and besids me, Kyle
x. You went to the movies with: Kyle, last night as a matter of fact.
x. You went to the mall with: Kyle.
x. Yelled at you: Kyle
x. Sent you an email: livejournal
HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: negative
x. Been to California: negative
x. Been to Hawaii: negative
x. Been to Mexico: negative
x. Been to China: negative
x. Been to Canada: negative BUT, EVEN THOUGH I HAVENT BEEN TO ANY OF THESE PLACES, I HAVE BEEN TO GREECE, ITALY, FRANCE, BELGIUM, AND ENGLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: nope.
x. Had an imaginary friend: nope, but once i tried to pretend like I did to get attention, but i kept forgetting what her name was... it didnt work out. I guess Im not imaginative.
x. Do you have a crush on someone: well, my boyfriend, but idont know if it counts as a crush
x. What book are you reading now: Catcher in the Rye
x. Worst feeling in the world: lonliness and jealousy
x. Future son's name: Riah and Caleb
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animals: yea, i sleep with the purple bunny that Kyle put in my easter basket.
x. What's under your bed: a boom box, a journal, and dustbunnies
x. Favorite sports to watch and play: basketball and baseball
x. Siblings: Billy
x. Location: right here, in the midst of lonliness and inadequacy
x. College plans: Rock Valley and then Rockford College
x. Piercings/tattoos: 3 in each ear and my belly button
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Kyle
EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: no
x. Do you drink: no
x. Who are your best friends: Becca and Kyle
x. What clothes do you sleep in: .Kyle hoodie and shorts or sweatpants
x. Where do you want to get married: in a ritzy hotel
x. Do you drive: yes
x. Do you have a job: yea, limited too
x. Do you like being around people:
x. Are you for world peace: yes, wat is bad
STUFF
x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yea, ewan mcgregor
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yes
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: I love kyle
x. Want someone you don't have right now: well i have him, as in i am dating him, but he is not with me at this moment, so yes i want someone who i do not have right now at this very moment.
x. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: Since youve been gone
x. Room in house: no room in my house
x. Type(s) of music: nothin in particular
x. Band(s):I dunno, dont really have a favorite
x. Color:purple
x. Perfume or cologne?: gap scents are all great and i like dream angel from victoria secret and rapture from victoria secret
x. Month:september
x. Type of stone: i like marchs birthstone, whatever that is.
IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: yep, like five minutes ago.
x. Bought something:yea
x. Gotten sick: no
x. Sang: yea
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yes,. and i did.
x. Met someone new: yea several actually
x. Missed someone: yes
x. Hugged someone: yes
x. Kissed someone: yes
F A S H I O N | S T U F F
x. Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes: charlette russe
x. Favorite designer?:
x. What is your most comfortable outfit?: .refuge jeans and any shirt as long as I am wearing those jeans
x. What do you usually wear?: my refuge jeans
S P E C I F I C S
x. What kind of shampoo do you use?: rusk
x. What are you listening to right now: nothing
x. How many buddies are online right now? 19 and I am talking to zero because, hm, i am not in the mood
F A V O R I T E S
x. Foods: veggies, any and all
x. Girls names: kasara
x. Boys names: riah and caleb
x. Subjects in school: english and social studies, not like history or geography but like sociology and things along those lines.
x. Animals:
H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
x. Given anyone a bath? yep, several times
x. Smoked? yea, unfortunately
x. Bungee jumped? yep
x. Made yourself throw up? yes
x. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yes
x. Cried when someone died? yes
x. Lied: yes
x. Rejected someone? .yes
x. Used someone? yes
x. Done something you regret? yes, a billion
C U R R E N T
x. Clothes: kyles hoodie and my white and blue sweatpants from aero
x. Music: nothing
x. Smell: simply white gapscent
x. Desktop picture: plain blue
x. CD in player: the cd kyle made me
x. DVD in DVD player: I have no idea
L A S T | P E R S O N
x. You touched: My mom
x. Hugged: my mom
x. You IMed: jon
x. You yelled at: I dont yell, I just roll my eyes and try not to cry
A R E | Y O U
x. Understanding: most of the time
x. Open-minded: most of the time
x. Arrogant: no
x. Random: yes
x. Hungry: no i hate food. it made me fat.
x. Moody: yes, especially once every 28 days
x. Hard working: no
x. Organized: yes
x. Healthy: yes
x. Shy: .yes
x. Difficult: about osme things
x. Bored easily: yes
x. Hyper: yes
x. Trusting: sometimes too much so
LAST | PERSON | Y O U HONESTLY
x. Slapped? Kyle, but I was just joking around
x. Talked to offline: my mom
x. Talked to online:jon
R A N D O M
x. In the morning I: just want to go back to sleep
x. All you need is: love
x. Love is: indescribable
x. Life is: a rollercoaster
x. I dream about: hmmm.
W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R
x. Coke or Pepsi: coke
x. Flowers or candy: candy. flowers die.
x. Tall or short: tall
W H O
x. Makes you laugh the most: kyle and becca and liz
x. Makes you smile: kyle, he can always make me smile.
D O | Y O U | E V E R
x. Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you? yep, i remember when i first starting liking Kyle lol, it was like that on several occasions.
x. Wish you were younger: no. i wish i was older
x. Cry because of what someone said to you? yes, i am very sensitive
N U M B E R
x. Of times you've had your heart broken: Gosh
x. Of CD's I own: a lot
x. Of scars on my body: one and you cant see it, its on the back of my head
x. Of things that I regret: gosh damn. there is one big thing, and several little ones....
Y O U R | T H O U G H T S
x. I know: nothing
x. I want: everything
x. I have: more than i know
x. I wish: i was someone else
x. I hate: feeling this way
x. I hear: nothing
x. I search: for meaning
x. I wonder: is it true?
x. I love: Kyle, very very very much.
For some weird reason, I wish this was longer. It kept me busy for... a whole 4 minutes. Gosh.
current mood: lonely
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| Friday, April 22nd, 2005
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9:32 am
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The weirdest conversation ever...
Mr. Doyle is talking about "I HEART my vagina"
Apparently, in Minnesota, girls have been wearing pins and/or shirts that say I HEART my vagina in order to make a statement about women and their rights and capabilities... hmmm, so it sparked a convo between the entire 3rd hour intro class, doyle the alcoholic lol, rollins, hoskins, and me. Heh, what an interesting convo!
So, the "authorities" are saying that if they continue to do this, they will expel those girls... hmm, is that fair? So that is the question... Should they be allowed to do that? Hmm, well I dont think that it is a problem. I mean, Mr. Doyle brought up the point that it is really not much different than saying I HEART my shoulder. Hmm, well it is kinda different, but... it is a body part. Its not like guys dont know that we have vaginas... ya know? It isnt like us having vaginas is BREAKING NEWS or anything like that! I just think that it isnt a huge deal. Personally, I dont really understand why they think it is such a huge statement, but I dont think that it is wrong for them to do. I think that it is more funny than making a statement. I guess I can understand it though because sometimes guys feel superior and they say stuff like
"well, I have a penis!" or "you just dont have a penis and I do!" ETC... and I guess the pins are kind of like saying "Well, you're right, I do NOT have a penis, but I LOVE MY VAGINA!" I dont know, it is all very strange...
So anyway, another thing... other than vaginas... very very different from vaginas. Judas. Judas. Judas. Did he go to hell? Well, senor Hoskins and Thomas have brought up good points to me as to why he probably did.... BUT, I still cant help but think that he didnt. I mean, okay, he betrayed Jesus. That certainly didnt damn him to hell because we betray Jesus all the time, ya know? He killed himself, and I am sorry, Catholics can suck it, people who kill themselves do not automatically go to hell. He obviously felt horrible for what he did, he obviously regretted his decision to betray Jesus... and he killed himself. Hoskins brings up the point that regretting and repenting are two different things... true, true, but ... I dont know, I just cant help but think that he was above condemnation. Chris also brings up when Jesus says whoa to the man who betrays the son of man, for it is better for him to have never been born. So, since Jesus knew that he would have to die, he couldnt have been saying that for his sake, he must have been saying it for Judas's sake, meaning that Judas was going to hell.
My grandma is in the hospital and I havent seen my parents all week. Yesterday was my dads birthday and he had to be at the hospital all day long, and then sleep on a couch. Poor guy. Well, my grandma should be fine, or so I hear. I dont really know. Im afraid that my brother died... he drank and drove yesterday. Drove a lot... and my brother has totaled two cars while sober... So I am just a little worried.
Alright, I will tlak to yall later, time for newspaper stuff... warm fuzzies, if we are lucky!
Nicole
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